So i ad to work today. The first thing someone sed when i walked in was 'oh hows the flat?'.
I just had to smile whilst i told her and her face dropped a million miles. She was shocked and embarrased bless her. It was ok tho, i felt ok. I had to take two painkillers to get through the afternoon, and having to tell everyone. My old boss came in and i told her, she was so surprised too! We spoke for ages tho and i kind of felt better. On the way home i got a bit tearful tho, probs just the painkillers wearing off and back to reality.
I decided to change my room around, move all the furniture and stuff, and i've decided to redecorate too. Just moving stuff felt better, although finding his stuff hurt so bad! I just wish that he hadn't left anything here. Although it means i'll get to see him again soon, so mayB its not all bad. I was on bebo, and hes set his status to single. That made me stop and stare and it kinda made it actually it home, hes taken all the stuff about me off of it too. I just feel like he's being so cold. I bebo'd him privately and said i'd like it if in a few weeks we could maybe do something and be friendly, but who knows really.I have accepted its over, but only for now. He'll grow up, im pretty sure, and realise that he doesnt want to be alone. I just want to be there when he does so that i can say lets try again. But mayB i wont feel like that then. I just dont want to loose touch incase he does that. plus, i know that his co-worker wants him, and im pretty sure something will happen between them cos she seems like a little shit, shes text me and been nice but i know shes talking behind my back. Grrrr i hate her! Shes older than him, been married and divorced. If he doesn't want a serious relationship, hes not doing well being near her.
I just love the guy. U can't help that really. I want to cry, but tomorrow is another day and im sure ill be a teeny tiny bit better then.

Over and out xx